ahh and the weekend draws to a startingly freezing close.
you know what's good about the weekend? Catching up on shit you feel to vulnerable to do during the backbreakingly hard work week! jokes!
sorry to come across like a whinger, but i guess that what a week end is good for. Plus its heaps better without homework and even a teensy bit better when someone you live with is trudging through their homework like a feeble little little puppy in a bondi junction pet shop-looking out onto the world which mocks, and points at its attempts to break free!
sorry again! So my website is coming along, its no longer a puny splash page. Its the best kind of thing to do when you're slightly hungover and can't face any frollicking in a park, or the like.
In other news...um , hmm, jeez, watching 'before sunset' and 'before sunrise' in a row, can have weird effects on one's emotional state, both very good movies indeed! 21st parties also do that to me
oh okay I'll post my update-ing site now, I know you all are hungry for a taste!


HERE

word up y'all
its been a while-ahem a week to be accurate, and not much to be said except for...
old people-you've really gotta give em credit, without being completely horrifically mean, their lives seem so HARD. we youngsters (read:me) bitch and moan so much-"wah, wah, wah" about our 'issues', and old people just have it so-TOUGH. Never knowing the next day's symptom, having to warm up just to get out of bed in the morning, eating alone and watching daytime tv. every fucking thing is a challenge.
oh jeez how depressing.

on a less reflective level-
I have succumbed,
succumbed to the infinite abyss that is BB. yes i know-v-o-m-i-t. and if I really was a so 'fascinated by the social experiment and interelations of the human kinds' I really should just um go outside and well...interact. but its like the drug 'ice', you never want to do it, and then you end up addicted and antisocial.
on another side note.

I LOVE
- the final scene of flashdance
- all the scenes from 'pretty in pink'
- andrew mcarthy
- merrick and rosso
- zara wood and all her work


DONT KNOW ABOUT

- mother's day (luv mum, but not the day so much)

Righto, in the mood of all things happiness relating, i thought some issues seriously need to be addressed re; seriously un-happy making
1. Facebook
With voyeurim de rigueur and spilling your guts out in generically fashioned dime a dozen blogs accessed by millions- (not unlike this one right here) it seemed inevitable that a monster called 'facebook' should rear its ugly head, sucking in innocent bystanders with a dangerous predilection towards procastinators. This so called 'friend-finder' has infected my world, its super suction tentacles fronting as entertaining prospects such as 'social status updates' or 'Find Friends' aka love me please, or Social timeline, The: creates a timeline of your social life simply by entering all your "friend" details. nuff said.
Sigh, another time zapper, another hideous consumer of valuable minutes which we are increasingly told to "treasure". I hesitate to declare, the earth shattering mind staggeringly exhaustive difficulty not withstanding, a ban from all things Facebook, facebook related, tagging (?) wall posts, scanning your next doors neighbors dog's best friends cousin photos from their Norwegian boyfriends homecoming.
Only then can i rest. Amen
2. Mothers Day
two things which have made me suspicious. 1) not many bad things are said about mothers day. 2) mothers day is often bad.
Why suspicious? Bad things arent all always talked about. Also, everyone has a mum and (mostly) everyone loves them.(love- hate relationships include
HOWEVER, has anyone stopped to think of the children?? The god forsaken children of that teen- angst forming nightmarish condition that is The blended family who can, for the majority of the year make the most of a pretty strange situation and get on with rest of their lives? Until the one day, when there's (probably) smoked salmon involved, and soft doughy bagels, and most likely coffee, and cake and polite conversation, and guilt mongering, and cranky tearful fights and mood swings and overly sentimental or emotionally unavailable over -priced greeting cards, and unstable shop assistants and tearing your hair out whilst jumping up and down screaming frantically- is SO not an option!
Anyway, um, suspicion 2) was unfounded. There is MUCH much causality. But a ban on this one might not go down so well.
Thoughts??
That is all for now, Adieu ye faithful few, and thank ye for thigh kindly purge

apparently we all have a set range of general happiness, which fluctuates around,and is most likely determined by genetics. this set range contributes to about 50% of our happiness, and means when huge events happen in your life your emotions will go beserk but then eventually return to normal.

BUT the circumstances we live in affect our happiness too, but this only accounts for 8-15% of our happiness. Makes sense considering the abundance of depression and mental disease in western, wealthy countries such as ours, and the better coping mechanisms of that in poorer, developing countries.

As well we have voulountary control, and contributes to 42% of our happiness, we have many aspects of out lives which we have the power to change-the way we think and act in the past, present and future. we should be greatful, and forgiving when thinking of the past, be 'flexibly optimistic' when thinking of the future, and take pleasure in the simple good things of the present. i.e a nice coffee.

ahh so namby pamby i know, but maybe will help some, maybe help me appreciate the godamn moment for once.