anxiety, tension, nerves....
all lead to general symptoms of yuckiness-clammy hands, furrowed eyebrows, sweatiness etc etc
but its so hard to stop!
even when we're enjoying today we're worrying tommorow, if I'm too relaxed now, maybe i'm a lazy butt, but if i'm working a loooonng mundane 9 to 5 work day, its just all too monotonous, what's going to happen to me, if I just end up int he comfort of a mindless, but 'safe job', I will simply combust with braindead-ness! even going on 'facebook' leads to feelings of inadequacy! why does everyone seem to have this thrilling 'laguna beach' lifestyle?
what's wrong with just listening to every 'feel good' movie we see, or actually listening to our parents when they say "enjoy the moment", "you're only young once" "just do it"
ra ra ra
its hard being complex,

so tommorow- the 26th of Feb heralds the first day of uni, fourth year running, except for moi! the other members of this blog are gaining some sense of closure with the ending of the holidays, and I am...*anxious*
so I will get out there and become a 'working girl' and hopefully I'll find out that it aint all that daunting, I'll work on this up and comin site in here


yaii and in the meantime, theres always the cathartic escapism of shite tv, such as Grey's Anatomy where a tree has just gone *through* a a freakingP ERSON, and the very UNterrible 'ugly betty'
oh and this blog
time to embrace some optimism, i think the time is 'ripe!'
who am I? who actually says stuff like this?
buhhh-yee

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